" ... . ..underneath the disguise of a smile, gradually i`m dying inside, friends ask me how i feel, and i lie convincingly, cuz i don't want to reveal, the fact that i`m suffering, so i wear my disguise, till i go home at night, and turn down all the lights and i breakdown and cry.."

-good song..

Hey!.. This weekend was sooo awesome..I went down to Lake Mead with Josh Webber and Katie Bredon, We had mucho fun!..It was sooo good to get away from everything and not worry or care about anything...I really needed it..lol..The trip also gave me a chance for some alone time, (aside from Josh's hilarious comments and katies uncontrollable laughter and stupid comments)..haha..I just had some time to reflect over my life.. This weekend was my cure to being a lot happier..not only with my life..but for who I am too.. lol..

Anyways.. I cant wait for school to be out! 16 days.. It went by so fast, but thats really not a bad thing..

Ill..type back later.. xoxo

"Why is it that one person can always bring me down on a day of full confidence..Is it everyones job to deprive me of the feelings of loving myself?"

..Hey.. Today was good.. Me and Taylor won in the Ram Review..That was kinda weird cuz we didnt even submit our Language Art Poems into the contest or whatever.. But I guess our teacher did?   But Heres Taylors Poem.. cuz its REALLY good.. and I dont really wanna show mine..soo yea heres hers lol..

 The iNNer Girl
                By: Taylor Flower
                       Period 5

I look upon what my outside world has created me,
I wonder where the true girl I am might be,
I look around but this girl is no where to be found,
I'm dazed and confused of where my twisting adventure is bound,
I feel like the ugly duckling that never transformed to the swan,
Or Maybe I'm the dark night that never rose into dawn,
My life is twisting like a color tornado of blacks and blues,
Then I question the life I had choose,
A wrong turn must have been made in the fork of the road,
Acting like I was a princess, who never would kiss the toad,
Instead of making myself a portrait that would never be sold,
I let the world write the story I told,   
I began to accept the wrong choices as something I couldn't reverse,
And searched for true happiness deep in my purse,
What is the difference between the girl I am truly,
And the girl that others think I am newly?,
Maybe the true girl and beauty is not what I appear,
But that I'm the hidden reflection not seen in the mirror,  
The end to the story that comes to my mind,
Is that one distant day I might find…
Not the mask, but that of what stands behind!

Isnt it soo good!? haha..

       Ill type back later.. xoxo

Hey! Sorry I havent updated in a while..I guess Im kinda tired of writing a few of many feelings I have, to everyone..  But I did add to my "Who I Am" Poem   Soo here it is, but I still have much more to add because I havent even figured out even part of who I am yet..

I am a Student, Friend, Daughter, and Sister, I am an Imaginer, Dreamer, and a Thinker, I am Cautious and Aware, I am a Mistake-Maker, and a Learner, I am opinionated, I stand up for my Religion, Friends, and Family, I am clumsy, Easily Amused, and I am Serious, I am Weird, I am Insecure, and I am Confident, I Laugh Loud and Cry Hard, I am an Over-Reactor, I am Proud and Humble, I have Faith, I am Hopeless, I am Under-Estimated, I have Achieved, I am a Sinner, I am a Christian, I am Emotionally Strong, I am Sensitive, I am Afraid of what the Future may bring, I am Lonely, I have many People who Love me, I am Happy and Sad, I Stand Proud, I am Envious, I am a Listener and Advice Giver, I am a Soccer and BroomHockey Player, I am Lucky, I am Ashley Marie Leavy, Its all Apart of me...And Thats Who I Am..